Tuesday, 13 March 2012
One down and counting!
One day down, the rest of my life to go!
I have managed to survive one day - my birthday in fact - without a single look on the so loved by me websites. I have to admit it was tempting and very close to being irresistable. My mind was going: just once, one look, one thing, it's your birthday after all. And my hart was saying: remember what this is all about, spending money on things you don't need and don't really want. It's a no no for you! After a long battle who do you think was the lucky winner? My hart!
It all has to be about following my resolutions, keeping faith in myself and being positive. If necessary reading my first post all over again. I know I can do it! I know I can be strong. These has to be my mantra, my theme sentences! So how come I can hear a voice at the back of my head saying: one sparrow does not make a summer? Oh well, I'll ignore it (the voice I mean) and will enjoy my first shopping free day and I will concentrate on being positive for the time being. I know it is early days and the crisis will come, but I have to, and I mean it, be positive. I can't live my life with all this "clutter" around, "clutter" that builds up because I do not know how to wake my strong will up. So...
I came up with the idea that I need something to occupy my mind, especially while I am at work. I know it sounds crazy, but my job is not very mind involving and high-tech and I do have a lot of free time on my hands to check the Internet. That's why I need something that will stop me, or actually the urge in me to have a small look on the websites. In other words, I need to think of another "hobby". For a start something that definitely does not involve spending money would be a good option. That shouldn't be difficult, should it? I suppose not! It's a matter of asking yourself what one like doing? Hmm...
Well, I like cooking, but I can't cook when I am at work. That would be pretty much difficult if not impossible. I like reading, but it is not necessarily possible to read at work either, not without the Manager noticing. What then? I know! Fashion! But wait a minute! That involves looking on websites though and those are fobidden until I can safely check and not feel the urge to buy everything I like. There you go then, there is no winning with me, I am a hopeless case.