Why is it so difficult? Do you know that I actually feel envious of people coming out of shops with shopping bags? The other day I saw this woman with a shopping bag from my favourite H&M store and I almost burst out crying because it wasn't me. That's not normal, is it? I fell like some sort of freak with no self control. I know I plunge myself into feeling low by constantly thinking about things that I would like to add to my wardrobe but I seem to be unable to help it. I do like shopping, probably a bit more than others, if only it didn't get out of hands in my case.
Perhaps just one little peak, one purchase, it would actually make me happy, wouldn't it? Well, I'm sure it would, for 5 minutes perhaps and then I would feel guilty for the rest of today if not longer. It's not worth it. I need to try harder!